~~~~lie myself~~~

long time did't write my blog ald...cause i dunno wan 2 write wat again...n also i'm face many problem in tis year...but nw is ok...still gt a little bit problem...but i dunno wat is the problem also...last month...i n elf was no talk anymore ald...cause she was angry me...i dunno y....i cant understand it...i just say i will waiting for she...den she ald angry...actually not angry...erm....she dont lik ppl say [i'm waiting for u]...she was very dislike...but i cant understand y she didn't lik??y??can gv me a reason??i'm really cant understod it...but nvm ...i didn't care it...cause i love she...forever...den...at tat month...i'm very sad cause she didn't pay attention to me...n didn't talk to me also....so i'm feel bad...gt 1 day...i'm go out wif friends.... i'm so miss she...den i call my friends help me to ask she hw can i do den we can lik last years lik tat....talk together play together....den she say [ if i didn't love she ald...den she just talk to me]...i hear it i'm so sad...y u wan lik tat....love 1 ppl izzit wrong???den i go home think a long of time...think hw can i do??izzit really gv up to love she again??.....den i decide lie she say i ald didn't love she again...actually i'm still love she...i'm 1st time lie she...i'm very very feel bad...cause i tell a lie to myself...say i didn't love she ald...omg...tat feel is so bad....but i no chance...just lik tis den we can talk n play together again...