Saturday, May 22, 2010

最后一次写部落格

TO:ALL MY SUPPORTER
i'm very thank you for all gt see my blog ppl n fren...today is my last ...so..hope u all be happy ,healthy,n happiness...bye..all my fren...see you...take care...T.T..i'm so grudge off tis blog...but somethings make me so feel bad...i cant (jie shou)..so..sry ...bye...miss you all...88,bye bye

TO:Pei Wen
佩雯。。还记得以前我们一起进lightning吗。。??还有佩佩。。当时我们一起做东西。。很开心。。可是我还是要和你们说对不起。。因为当时我嫌你们慢。。所以退出了。。很抱歉。。还有。。你记得我们说过的家吗。。??说到超夸张的。。好白痴。。不过。。现在的我们。。变得怎佯了。。??我没想到会这样。。昨天你信息我和我说那些话。。我当场心碎。。你们可以因为某人而这样。。对。。这一切都是我照成的。。我不能说什么。。老实说。。看戏那天。。我很气你。。为什么。。我知为什么你要这样做。。你都是为我好。。我气你。。我不对。。但这次的。。我真得无法接受。。你们实在令我太失望了。。伤到我太重了。。晓雯的事我已经很伤了。。你们还这样对我。。不信任我。。说我想太多。。我..我..算了..说多又是我错多..就这样..拜..

TO:德伦,静而,佩玲,文祥等等。。
德伦,静而,佩玲,文祥等等。。这么久以来。。谢谢你们帮我。。我求你们的事。。你们都有帮我。。真是谢谢你们。。但现在我对他们很失望。。他们伤到我好重。。我无法接受。。所以我决定自动消失在他们面前。。我希望我这决定不会连累到你们。。你们也不要因为我。。而跟他们反。。没这样的必要。。少我一个。。无所谓。。就当着少了一个情绪化的人。。谢谢你们一直帮我。。谢谢。。

TO:RIO Withu
伟鸿。。这是我和你的合照。。我看也是最后一次的合照。。认识你。。我很开心。。但是自从一件事发生。。我和你就变得陌生了。。讲真话。。你们令到我对你们反感了。。对你们失去信心了。。我不怕再说多一次。。就是因为某人。。你们不信任我。。偏帮某人。。和你说。。你就说我想太多。。所以我不知还能和你说什么了。。在你们眼中的‘他’。。永远是对。。。给到我。我是这样觉得。。我也知道你们接着会说什么。。你们不觉得我是对。。算了。。也不是第一次了。。我也受够了。。所以我会离开。。以后你们也不用再看我的脸色。。还有。。如果你们觉得我针对他。。我也不怪你。。
我记得我们以前一起去唱歌。。是几开心。。几废。。但那是以前的事。。回不过去。。嗨。。我也不知该说什么了。。就这样。。拜。。


TO:Elf
晓雯。。这是唯一一张有我和你在里面。。说开心不是说很开心。。但已满意。。我知道。。这一路以来。。你都没有喜欢过我。。一路以来。。都是我一厢情愿。。自作多情。。我不能得到你的喜欢。。。是我没那样的福气。。说真话。。我从来没打算放弃你。。很多人都说我白痴。。说我傻。。我都不介意。。但是今天我想跟你说。。我永远不会再喜欢你。。你满意了吗??。。。祝你成功令我不喜欢你了。。这3年来。。我都很管你。。现在你终于可以自由了。。或许你一路来都是很自由。。只是我想太多了。。原来这3年。。我为你做的东西。。是给我自己爽罢了。。而从来没给过你快乐。。和你告白4次。。4次都失败。。等了你3年。。3年都在白等。。所以从今天开始。。我会永远消失在你眼中。。我自动离开。。你也因为我烦了很久。。气了很久。。今天你终于可以不用再气了。。不用再烦了。。我也不会再烦你了。。以后你的生日。。我看我都是没机会和你去庆祝了。。送礼物给你。。你也未必会收。。所以在这先祝你生日快乐。。身体健康。。拜。。


今天是我最后一次写这一个部落格。。。一路以来。。。我都认为写部落格能和朋友分享心事。。。其实是错的。。或许只是我一个是这样。。。写部落格不能分享心事。。。而是给人骂。。给人说。。。这么久以来。。。我写的东西都是废的。。。自己写自己爽。。。今天我才看清他们的真面目。。。也才看清自己的真面目。。。这么久以来。。。我从没和朋友反到这样。。。也没试过给朋友伤到这么重。。。这次就当我没戴眼识人。。。
这张照片。。。是我为她写的一首歌。。。也是我最后写给她的一首。。。因为我看都是已经没机会好回了。。。就当着这是我送给你的生日礼物。。。去年每送到。。今年补回给你。。。

Friday, May 21, 2010

hearted me so hard too

nw....gt two things make me so feel hard...1st is she...n the second 1 is my fren...he can say is my best fren...but he make me so broken heart...cause ..wat i say to him...he just will say me think too much...say me think all the negatif things....he unbelieve me...so nw we can talk wat again....he make me unbelieve he again....actually we can be best fren forever de....cause some ppl (chu xian)...i dont want say is who they all also know who i say....u say...hw can i say my (xin shi) wif u....i grugde....but...u make me so hearted...T.T'''...(yuan lai)...wat i say also i think too much...but that guy say wat also good....nw...u all make me hate u all ler....i'm so sad....i'm ald so sad cause she ler...nw u make me sad again....以前的我们。。。去了哪???
一句说完。。。是我想太多。。。全是我的错。。。‘他’永远是最好!!!你们让我‘跌眼镜啊'
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Thursday, May 20, 2010

i'm bak

long times didn't write blog ler...actually i want write de...but i'm so bz...so cant write....
exam is coming soon...i'm so afraid...cause i haven ready ....so scared ohh...@@..but i will try my best lar...JIA YOU!!!!!!
last wednesday...i saw she so bored in class room....sitting there see book...n that day Yi Ting didn't went to school also...so ...i saw she so bored....n tis week....i saw she look lik so unhappy n irritated...i dunno izzit true anot...that just my feelings...hope that is not real lar...
today i'm so miss her...dunno y..?? i forget when ald...i saw some 1 write [if u love some 1 but cant together...u must (zhen xi) smile wif she...talk wif she ...play wif she...(de shi ke)..]when i saw tis....i'm become convinced...i wont make she unhappy again...cause i wont see her so unhappy....if she unhappy...not pretty ler....i love to see she happy....
erm....so many month ago...i n she still lik that...didn't talk again...=.='''when we can talk together ner??...i dunwan lik that again lor...haihzzzZZzz....i n she will lik that is cause of me....if i didn't say that word...we wont lik that de...all is my false....i hate myself....!!!!....nw ...i didn't talking wif family again ler....gt talking lar...but just talk a little only...i dunno y...i ald so alone ler....go whr also alone .....n 1 things i didn't tell anyfren....if who gt saw my blog i hope u all dont tell any body...i think i'm ald have a sick...is (you yu zheng)i dunno izzit i think too much....or wat...but...i dunno hw to say....i think is me (shou le hen da de chuang shang).....actually i'm so sad de....but i cant let she know....so when i saw her....i will let she saw me happy....
yesterday....rio told me faster gv he a answer i can go Genting anot....den i ask who gt go...he say Jane,Lun n himself....n ki n Yong Zhan haven know...n she also....frankly say...when i know ki gt go....i dunwan go ler....cause i dunwan go wif he....y...??cause i cant forget that days we go sing k wat he doing ..!!!!(dang wo tou ming mah!!!!)....n also 1 things i want say so long time liao de...but i dunno hw to say...den i just write here....frankly say....when rio they all meet ki ald....our relationship ald so bad ler.....i'm not means is ki false or who false....i just feel ....nvm...i dont care....if they all think ki is better than me ....i just told u all....u all can find he....not nid find me....n i wont (da rao) u all again also....u all always (ren wei) i'm so (qing xu hua)....ok...i dont care....nw wat i say ....u all will think me is think too much....everyday ...when we go out together....i always make u all unhappy....always is me....my false....ur ki so good....he didn't false....all my false....i say ki so close wif she....u say play is lik that ....ok....i'm no comment again....cause u say lik tis....let me know....in u all heart...ki is so good forever....n me..???is a (shao xing de ren)...(qing xu hua de ren)...(hu si luan xiang de ren)....i know rio u will see my blog...n i also know...if u see i say lik that....u will angry me....nvm....if u want angry me i cant blok u...i just say the truely 1....if u all think i say tis all is false....ok....(jiu dang wo zi yan zi yu)....
i just love she only....if ur lover is lik tis ...hw u feelings..!!!!???...so...cant (guai wo)....
I'M SRY....I LOVE U..

Monday, May 17, 2010

Crazy DayS...!!!!HAHAHA
















wow...today is teacher day...we go school see show ald...den we went to old town town eat lunch...after we finish our lunch...den we went to sing k...HAHAHAHA...XD...is too crazy....so happy also....^^erm...dunno hw to say again ...just see photo bah....is really crazy n happy...!!!XD

Friday, May 14, 2010

be at ease

today..i'm so angry ...cause some ppl make me so angry....!!!!!!
but nw is ok ler....nothings ald...
don't say that things ald...today i on msn...saw elf on9....den i go ask she...hw her feeling nw??become better ler..??she say become better ler....wah...i heared it i'm so be at ease ler....not nid so care ler....but also want be careful lar....cause the weather always change...some times raining some times hot...@.@'''be careful ark....rio today didn't go school also...he say he so tired ...=.=''''no comment..@.@
aiyo...lik tis 4 days i cant saw elf ler...=.=''so bad...actually today i want call she de...but at msn saw she gt on9...den not nid call ler....n also...she still so(len dan)to me...haihzZZzzz....(man man lai bah boon yau)...she will do lik to me is cause she don't want i love she...den she just will lik that....but i can tell everybody....i wont forget she ....i wont gv up to love she....ya...she is my best fren...best best best best fren...but she is my lover also ....so...i don't mind wat she do wif me....i will wait....n i wont let she irritated ,unhappy again...I PROMISE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!i'm a men...i cant make my lover unhappy,irritated n cry....i cant....if i do it again...i'm not a gentlemen...n i also cant love she....if i love she...i must gv she feel happy,romancer,sense of security n everything good....
nw i dunno she izzit hate me anot...???...n i know she dunwan i still care her...so i will always queitly help her...gv her happy n more....i will..
I'M SRY...I LOVE U...

Wednesday, May 12, 2010

nice

last monday...she didn't go school...den i ask rio y she didn't go school...he say dunno also....after bak home...i call rio go to ask she...y didn't go school today..???den rio told me....she reply [didn't go]...just lik that....haihzzzZZ...i think she know is me call rio ask de...so she dunwan say....SAD...
den next day...she gt come...i saw her hair is straight ler....den i think yesterday she is go make her hair ...den didn't go school....her hair is so nice....pretty...but also no else....cause i just can say in my mind....(u so beutiful...ur hair so nice)....haihzzzZZ....
i can feel she dunwan me sad everyday de....i can feel she care me de...but izzit all my feel is real 1..??love some 1 is so hard....but want some 1 love u is very very hard....lik me ....i love she ..but she didn't me....whr can find our true love..???...how can we find our true love...???i just know ....i love she...wat is love...???love is a feeling....she is my lover...but also my best fren.....
I'M SRY...I LOVE U ...WAITING FOR U...

a figure viewed from behind

so many days ago...i'm not dare to look she...i just can look a figure viewed from behind...i want to look wif she face to face ...but i'm not dare ler...i scared she didn't lik...n also...i every times just pass through the mirror to see her...i want to look her face to face...but nw i really not dare ald....so many days didn't saw her real face ler...just saw her figure viewed from behind...T.T.
missing some 1 just so feel hard...n also i miss that girl is not love me 1...lik tis more broken heart...n hearted...T.T all of my fren always call me to gv up...to forget she...don't waste the time...
i know all my fren is dunwan i hearted again n broken again....den will call me to forget she...but i really cant do it....cause she is my lover....she is my true love...if want forget is so hard....i grudge to forget she....
gt lik tis (xia chang) is i 1 ppl make de....is me....i cant be her lover is my lost...i know she gt fall in love so many times ler....n i also know who is that guy gt be her lover before....i dunno izzit she fall in love so many times ler...so boring...den she dunwan fall in love again ler....haihzzZZzz....i know so many ppl love she also....i'm just the last 1....didn't have my turn forever.....i'm the last....y i know i ald cant be her lover...n she didn't love me de....i still wait her...love her...??....i know i'm ald no more chance ler...i just can silently help her....love her ...miss her...let she happy....i just want she happy only....i'm not happy nvm...that not important...that important is she must happy....
I'M SRY....I LOVE U...